Twelve short paragraphs

There are twelve short paragraphs I recite every morning. I do this while doing a plank at the end of my stretching session. They are the things I need to and want to work on. Some are what I aspire to. So, one can call these my affirmation. Every weekend, I go over these with my calendar, review how I did, and write down.

I’ve been doing this for more than two years. I don’t remember what I had on the first version because I have been editing and updating as I had overcome or attained (enough). Some of them ceased to align with me. I revised most entirely on the new year's day this year. A few months ago, I changed the wordings, thus nuance, of the last three. The previous version had not been sitting well with me and I had been somewhat forcing myself to say them. Now, they feel right (to my current self).

This simple daily and weekly practice has been helping me tremendously. Maybe because I had been in such a horrible state two and a half years ago (and the thirty preceding that.) Starting at the bottom has so much upside...haha. Well, I had been unbelievably lucky in the early part of my life, and thinking about what I had received, overall, I have been pretty lucky.

Looking at these twelve and rereading aloud as I write now, I feel I am good with eleven of them. I have not mastered yet and still need to and want to work. But, at least, I don’t feel I am an impostor when I say these. The last sentence of the last paragraph, however, is still tough to say - I am fulfilling my highest possible potential.

“Doing the best I could” and “fulfilling my highest possible potential” might be similar, yet, I don’t feel that they are the same. The part of me who has learned to “treat myself like someone I am responsible for helping” and “not to tyrannize myself”, kind feel they are similar enough. I don’t know yet. I might be working on and thinking about this for a while.